“To alcohol! The cause of... and solution to... all of life's problems”
― Matt Groening
This was the first holiday season I remember that alcohol wasn't involved. I mean no alcohol drank in our house at all. I can see the eyes rolling and hear the mumbling.......put away your judgements and keep reading. Maybe there will be one little phrase that catches your eye and sinks into your heart.
2023 has been a rough year for a lot of people. For someone with an alcoholic or addict brain every year is perceived as the hardest. Let's be honest, as an alcoholic (or addict) you feel alone A LOT; I know I do. I also know that I kept my demons, as well as my history, hidden from most people including family. So this is a new year and a new start. Let's start the year with honesty in recovery.
My name is Hana and I am an alcoholic....
'So I said it Now What?' I couldn't even begin to count how many times this exact thought ran through my head. Now what seems to be a theme song on so many occasions. We all know alcoholics have to go the meetings, right? I found over the years that meetings aren't for everyone and everyone's recovery is different. I have been to meetings however, I am not much of a people person and groups did not help me. I have to share privately. My now what was answered when I started sharing with my husband some of my alcoholic experiences.
Let's talk about me
Today I want to share just a little of my story. I grew up in the home of an alcoholic and like so many others, I swore I would never let my life turn out like that. I'm still searching for the rock I fell over on that one because let me tell you, I got terribly close! My story is no different than so many others out there yet I always felt like I was alone. Deep in my soul I felt alone. I found myself and my soul when I let the Lord back in my life and I really thought that I had life by the ear! A few years later I had the same sinking feeling and had no idea how to shake it. I mean, if God hasn't kept me happy what can I do right?
It's all in my hands
My happiness begins and ends with me and the attitude I take daily. I am learning every day to accept myself and love myself. Part of my daily therapy is to share parts of my life with others so maybe they won't feel alone. Who knows, maybe you are experiencing something I have. Or even better, maybe if you did, you will see that we can survive and thrive!
I look forward to sharing with you and hearing from you as well.